在好友黃輝的 blog 內發現了她對我的 description ! hahaha! 我一定要記錄下來!

 

「J 就是如此坦率可愛的女子。愛如是，恨如是，都不會埋在心裡作繭自縛，她的字就如她本人一樣直接、坦白、絲毫不掩飾。」

 

我唔要再聽佢 d bull shit

我唔要再聽佢 d 九唔撘八既歪理

我唔要再聽佢講佢 d 夜總會攬女經過

我唔要再聽佢講佢去蒲有幾好玩

我唔要再聽佢講佢 d  80年代暴發戶西 friend 既野

我唔要再聽佢話自己係小朋友

我唔要再聽佢 0個 d 極不負責任既說話

我唔要再聽佢 d 大話

我唔要再聽佢話我表妹

我唔要再幫佢改文改信

我唔要再幫佢改 cover letter

我唔要再幫佢改 resume

我唔要再見到佢 d 超鬼祟既行為

 

晨咁早接到表叔的來電，真係估唔到佢能在這個禁固期突然蒲頭。

但這個電話確實令我失望兼可笑。

佢九唔撘八地問我有冇玩佢電話…blah blah blah….. 我完全唔知佢講緊乜。自己四周點火頭，出事就第一時間黎質問我，What the fxxk！

我不覺得「興」，只覺得佢又再一次令我失望了。我選擇唔發難，反宜順住佢黎講，try to create 更多的 confusion 給他，相信這是比發難更好的反應。

佢話找上門的人有幾冇品…blah blah blah…. 我其實真係覺得很可笑，一個超冇品既人竟然話人地冇品！由佢條女拆左張 V-day card 開始，便知道佢身邊的人要幾冇品、有幾冇品，對付冇品既人，往往就係要用返 d 冇品既方法，所以有人咁對佢，一d 都唔出奇。

這件事我只能說「自作孽、不可活」plus 抵X死！

This is a very special V-day for me!

With no valentine, no flower, no candle light dinner, no V-day gift.

But with many good friends and a seriously broken heart.

 

 

Feb 5, 2007     5:40pm @ NYC Starbucks

 

It is freezing outside. Finally my NYC trip came to an end and i feel so complicated It is a very good and happy trip, and I am happy with the trip but i am feeling sad.

Although it is just a short trip, i miss every moment i spent with him in NYC, and I know I might never have another chance to travel wtih him again.

Thanks for bringing me happiness and cheerful memory. I will never forget about that.

I am sad because I know that  we have already come to an END. I like him very much, but he doesn't like me anymore, I can feel it.  I am not what he is looking for.

What he wants is a playmate instead of someone he likes or someone who likes him. Hope he and his gf will be doing great in the coming future.

 

Eva, Joeanna and mom pop into my head. Now i really wanna hug them all and cry as loud as i can.  I really need you guys.

 

Joeanna & JT,  I am sorry. I didn't listen to you guys and did get on the flight to NYC.

Mom, I am sorry, i didn't tell you the truth. I hope you are around.

Eva, can you go back home after work ASAP on Wed evening? I need you, i dun wanna be home alone.

 

JT, finally I understand it is time for me to pull out from this relationship. I know it is not an easy task, but I will try my best. Dont' worry! Sorry for annoying you in the past few months, promise you, I won't lose myself again!  

 

Sing Sing, I dunno what else i should say to you besides a big SORRY. I still remember our conversation about my patience. I am so sorry!

 

JT, Tony & Anna Bell Bell,  in th epast 10 months, I felt lost when we were in LKF because he was not around. But last weekend i went clubbing with him in NYC, I found that my feeling was even worse, because YOU GUYS WERE NOT THERE!!! I miss you guys!

 

 

 

 

 

Feb 5, 2007   3:30pm @ NYC

 

Guess what i am doing?

I am choosing a Valentine's Day card for my ex-hubby at NYC Hallmark.

The feeling is sooo weird.  But i truly wish him a Happy V-day!